I am back at it after a break !!!

Looks like I need to write more - 1200 views - I kind of gave up thinking that not too many people were reading the blog.  I don't have but one follower - but now I feel new inspiration ...

So today was spent trying to keep my butt out of hot water financially.  The truth is for over a year now I have not made a study income.  I have been blessed by friends gifting me money, friends taking me to dinner, and friends giving me gift cards for the grocery.  I don't want to go into bankruptcy - been there - done that - but the amount of debt I have incurred because I have had to live off my credit cards - is now kind of staggering.  If I think about it I seriously have a panic attack.  So I try not to.  Come January things will start to change a bit - I hope.  The best was that dumb Bank of America took a mortgage payment out of both my checking accounts.  that was over 1200.00 - now if they apply the second payment to December that will be fine, other wise I will not have enough money to make it in December.

As I write this stuff - I just keep thinking about how this happened to me and why it happened - I know that I am more humble than ever - but between the surgeries, the severe depression, and the money problems - I could use some relief.

I do get some when I visit with friends - they have been some of the best times.  Catching up with high school friends has really helped too.  I get a real sense of support from that group - support I really need right now.  My other friends have been very supportive too.

One of my friends suggested about a month ago I start a GoFundMe.com page.  When she suggested it, I thought it would be an easy thing to do.  I discovered it wasn't and put it off.  Now that I see my money dwindling and no hope for much money coming in and bills to pay - it seems that maybe it is time.  This will at least help to offset some of medical bills I have incurred as well as making sure I can put food on my table.  I know that many of my friends are probably in a similar situation to what I am in - I understand - believe me.  When i hear someone say I don't have any money - I really get that now.  I think I got it before, but now i truly get it!

Guess I have rambled enough for now ... thanks for reading sorry if this was not very funny - I will get a funny one on here soon ... now that I know people are reading it!!!!